my last lullaby [o p e n]

[moondog__[இ]]

damon

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore
Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

I cringed as he moved towards me, yet...it wasn't so bad. In fact, I found myself looking at him curiously. Would it be so bad to let someone else in, to gain a friend? It wouldn't kill me. 'It might as well.' Heckled the crow, hopping over to stand it front of me. I glared down at it as it tilted it's head to one side, my deep amber eyes filled with absolutely loathing. 'You remember what happened when you let the old idiot in. He died. And when you let that slut Romilda in. She left you for your brother!'

"She was not a slut." I growled at the crow, and it cackled, dancing about. 'Hit a nerve, hit a nerve! Slut slut, she's a slut! Oho, you know it, Damon, you know she is!' I growled heartily, and then I realized that Renji was speaking. Ripping my attention away from the bird, I listened to him closely.

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be

That’s a nice sob story, kid. But they’re just hallucinations. They aren’t there. Why should this bother you? Just because you see them? Why not treat it as a normal everyday crow? Or maybe, just not see it at all. I sighed and looked down at the bird, shaking my head as he continued on. I’ve been around a bit for my young life, Damon- and I’ve seen weaker dogs than you overcome this. Now, every now and then you’re gonna have your bad days when the crows just gonna fucking rip your head open and peck at your brains, but you can’t just live so miserably like this. That crow is always gonna be there, but you cannot allow it to live your life for you.

I stared him in the eyes, and then chuckled darkly. "The crow is my life, Renji. I've tried so hard to forget him. But he says horrible things, unforgivable things that annoy me. He's in my head. He's part of me, he is me. He's my soul." I frowned, considering. "Maybe if I had something else to concentrate on. Or someone with me to talk to daily, it wouldn't be so bad. If I had encouraging company...like now, since I'm talking and my mind is set on other things, he's not nearly obnoxious as he usually is. In fact, I could probably get him to go away."

I concentrated hard on what I was saying, completely ignoring the heckling bastard. I ignored his wings so dark that rainbows danced off the feathers, his long sharp beak, his talons...I ignored it all. And then when I was done speaking, I glanced down...and he was gone. I nodded once to myself.

"Now he's gone. Because I've got something else to think of. But he'll be back. Oh, yes, he'll be back soon. Maybe all I need is someone like a friend. But I'm Damon. I don't need anyone. I don't need anymore betrayal."

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm fallin’ in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now, come down
Let the rain come down

[/size]

The actor;; Damon
The script;; six. six. four.
The Inspiration;; Into The Ocean- Blue October
Notes;; Not at all, Tsu! =D

[Tsuyaa-kunn !]

Behind the naked stone you crouched
in hushed concern,
waiting for the sun and rain
to change you from a seed to tree again.

_UNFINISHED